3-25-10-teleconference

So yesteday we had a teleconference with our PT, OT, and the support team at Bloorview REhab center.
It's all so very complicated and we keep feeling like we are going back and forth and aren't sure what to do. We thought we had decided, but some things changed. They said it might be possible to have Ezra there with Ayla and I (because Ryan will be away for work). We would have to pay about $25-$35/night for a family suite if Ezra were to stay...and they might be able to work it so Ayla would be able to stay in the fam suite with us rather than in a "hospital" room with me at bedside, since she isn't actually sick anymore.

That said, yes, it's exactly a hospital environment. A hospital bed floor and then phsyio is on a seperate floor, and then the family suites are in the upstairs on the building.
So now i'm trying to get a hold of the doctor and out PT for a couple more questions...like, do they feel like it's detrimental for her to be there in order to recover 100%?? I know that the DR. is worried the longer she takes to recover the less likely she will be able to recover fully....so here is what i feel: what if we stay here and she's disabled for the rest of her life all because we didn't want to put her and our family through the multiple transitions?? What if we go there and it's a total catastrophe for her and makes us broke in the process??

So we are still trying to figure it out. If we don't go now (in the next couple weeks) then she'd have to get another referral and wait if we decided at a later date to go.
On top of this, like i mentioned earlier, Ryan is going far away for work, about 6 hours away so he will be living there. I am so very worried about...so many things.

On top of that i have a small sugery coming up in April...HOW WILL THAT WORK WITH EVERYTHING?

I keep trying to remember, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your path straight". (1 John 5:11-12) but man...sometimes it's so hard...


Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. I'm sorry to dump on you all. You are so generous with all your love and support. We are so thankful for you all.
God Bless you and yours.