Ayla 1-23-11, never say never

Hello everyone!
I hope you all are enjoying the winter! I do not like the cold and the time it takes to get in and out the door, but the kids love it:) We have been sledding and skating and those parts have been fun for everyone. Ayla has really enjoyed it and we are so thankful. I'll send a couple pictures of her with this. When we went sledding it was hard for Ryan and i not to be in a panic, "what if she falls off?" But she never fell off and she laughed and screamed with joy every single time and did not want to leave when it was time. As for skating, she only last about 2 minutes on the ice with Ryan holding her up, but it was something she's been wanting to do since last year. She went on the ice with her little hockey helmet, a mini hockey stick (just like big brother), and a big smile on her face. Praise God for the little girl He made.
As some of you know, Ayla had an MRI finally scheduled for the 12th. We took her in, gave her the oral sedative, and it did not work. Our little girl would not go to sleep for her MRI, despite a very large dose and a very small little girl. A friend of ours who works in a different part of the hospital said, "The Lord must know she didn't need it today." So that's what i keep in mind, instead of the frustration. Ayla will now need a general anastetic for her MRI. She has an appointment in London this week with the anastatist, so that when they squeeze her in, we won't need to do that first. We are on a cancelation list for the MRI.
This week Ezra and I were playing at McDonalds while Ayla while we were waiting for Ayla to finish school. There was another little boy and girl the exact same age as our kids. And the little girl also goes to the John Mcgivney Center (school Ayla goes for therapy)! She goes there for speech therapy. One thing we've never needed for Ayla. So while i sat and watched them play i thought, "look at that girl run and climb, and when she falls she gets right back up. Ayla probably will never be able to do that." WHY DO I DO THAT TO MYSELF? If she never is able to do that, the Lord never intended for her to. It was never in her plan. Many other things are. Good and acceptable and perfect things, just for her. It's funny the ideas we get in our heads of the way things are "supposed" to be instead of how they are. Funny thing is, that day when we went to pick Ayla up, her Occupational Therapist told me that Ayla climbed the ladder on the wall with very little help. She was a "mountain climber." The therapist commented on how strong her arms are getting to be able to hold herself on. An hour earlier i was thinking, "probably never" and then how things change. We can never say or think never. It's our of our hands.
I bet this spring she'll be able to climb the slide in our backyard again, just like she was able to before all this happen, when she was only 18 months old.
Thanks for your love and support everyone!
God Bless.
Lacy